Carson was back home for a few days for his high school graduation in May 2010; just about to return to his summer job in Southeast Texas.
He was finishing his graduation Thank You notes for his mom to mail when he left. His mom was standing in the kitchen by the coffee pot, when he came to her and said, "I know that I've disappointed you and dad and done things you didn't approve of, so I might as well show you the tattoo I just got." Then, he raised his shirt and across his back was the declaration "Not a Day Promised" tattooed in stately lettering. He then told his mom, "In your memory, I'm going to put the dates you and dad die on each side."
He had waited until after his 18th birthday to get the tatoo. Julie assured him that at that particular time in his young life, she and I were worried for him in more important things.
Carson asked his mom to put ointment on the tattoo, because it was still fresh. As he was putting his shirt back down, she asked him to wait so she could take a picture to show his dad.
How could we have known the incredible importance of his declaration at that time?
Less than two months later, in the early morning of July 12, 2010, after suffering from chronic Bipolar illness for many years; the continuous mood instability between the severe lows of depression and the risk-centric highs of mania, the hand tremors (which made it almost impossible for him to weld, his true vocational dream), fractured sleep patterns, the medicine, the changes in medicine, the doctors, Psychiatrists, Psychologists, and so much more, Carson took his own life in the corner of a peaceful meadow, enveloped by aged trees that overhung as great protectors, where he made his final earthly rest, took his final breath, and met the Lord of his eternal life.
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